California.

So basically right now I'm SOO frustrated that I'm not in california. 

its such a critical time in the states politics. 

with prop 8(aka prop hate) being passes, and all the rallies and protests against it

i just wish that i was there. so that i could proudly stand in the rallies and protest the hate. 

i so would too..

but here i am.. in freaking idaho... of course as soon as i go out-of-state is when it happens.. 

--david

Changing.

so lately ive been thinking a lot about all the change i went through since this time last year. 

this time last year i was a senior wigging out about were to go to college and struggling to eat all of my feelings ( failed at that one mister i-gained-30-pounds-in-2-months )

and right now I'm in frickin idaho. Away from my family, happy, and a completely different person.

have you ever experienced that feeling where you just KNOW your seeing the world differently. Like in a way you couldn't have before. 

Thats were i am right now. I've never NOT seen my family for so long, I've never had to share all my space with another person. I've never been unable to not do something cause of money. and I've never really had to fix my own problems. 

hey look at me. im growing up. :)

Right Now

im feeling....

scarred 

depressed

grieved

and empowered

all at the same time. 

basically my sister was here  this weekend, and it was SO great. I just love and adore her so much, and we had so much fun. But like all good things, it came to an end, and she had to go home. I almost broke down in the airport. Then i actually did break down on the car ride home. 

I just get so frustrated sometimes. Sometimes i think to myself: "Why am i here at NNU?"; "Was Idaho the right choice?"; and "Is College even right for me?". 

I just wish i could se her more. The thought that this new way of life, in that i only see more darling sister a couple weeks a year, is a thought that almost brings me to my knees in tears. 

I just love and miss her so.. so.. much.

--David